I feel like I should at least mention here that I've become pretty sick in the past month or so. Longer, really since I have been having mild stomach issues since November that just got progressively worse. The stomach issues I mentioned back here have been on-going and I've been to both a general practitioner and now a gastroenterologist. Unfortunately I haven't made it to a diagnosis yet but I'm hoping to know something within the next 10 days, once my results are back.
Part of my mystery illness prohibits me from being hungry almost ever and I feel nauseous when I do eat a few bites. Needless to say, this makes my daily focus on getting enough calories in myself so I don't literally starve my body and it's easier said than done. Every bite seems to be a battle, which is a stark contrast to before when I was a person who really loved food. I would really like to be that person again. Starving your body against your own will is pretty shitty. I don't ever feel well and I rarely have the energy to do much. I worry about never getting better all the damn time.
That is why I'm behind on all my 2014 Challenges and why I've been posting less. I was hoping to not mention it except for the last post a month ago but first of all, I feel like I need to share for the people who are going through similar things and secondly, I figured I owed it to explain why most of my self-given assignments are not coming to fruition.
I hope with every single fiber of my being that I get some relief soon and I have a new respect for people who deal with chronic illness daily. It's been amazing how buoyed I've been by people's well-wishes and messages and notes (and even shared stories of similar issues, unfortunately) so if you know someone who is going through similar stuff, please don't forget to reach out to them. Even if you don't know what to say. Just "Hey, thinking of you" is good enough often times.
Hope you are all well! And I hope to be back to myself soon!